Who am I?

Who am I?
I do not know
As you ask from painted billboards and
Scream to me from cardboard signs

Who am I?
Am I enough?
You make me question as I wonder aimlessly through aisles stocked
With things to make me better and

More worthy of something I will never have
Nor ever wish to have and yet
I find myself pursuing, in days spent toiling
To be like you, you who tell me that

I am not enough

Yet as I wander through halls of
Self and reflection I
Am greeted by, you once more
An enemy, I’ve called friend

For more years than I could count

For I look at you, and believe your lies
I believe what you say about me
And I am, comfortable
Damaged in your arms that make me feel

Insecure about all of me and
Make me hate myself, and who I am
Because I am not you
I am not what you had wanted

For your lofty expectations are
Placed inside my head
By I, who take your lies demanding perfection and
Try to soar with them as wings

But instead of soar, I fall to earth
Heavy under weight I was never meant to carry
Yet you, bid me to, that I might be
Bound forever in your shackles and

Blind to all your evil

That I might, forget who I am
Who I am really called to be
By One who is holier, and really, has no comparison to you
That I may be seperated from Him

Cut off for all eternity

Then your work, will be complete
You I once called friend
For every lie, every word
Every falsity under guise of truth was spoken to

Drag me down to hell, away from Him
From Him who alone is true

So away from me!
You worker of lies!
I will believe your spittings no longer!
I choose to trust in Him

Who alone made me, as He intended and
Who calls me to be, so much more
Than you ever feared and
Than I ever dreamed

For what I am, is not mine
All I am is His
He has called me, as His own
So I can rest in confidence

Knowing that, He is good
And faithful for all time
Forever true, always merciful
Him who made me as I am

And I, I now know who I am

And that is enough for me.

For You have called me as Your own
A thing I will never truly understand
Yet Your great mercy is, enough for me
So I will praise You, forevermore

You who have called me Your own
I will trust in You
For You have made me, pure and spotless
Cleansed by Your blood

And so, the only thing
The only title, the only approval I
Will ever wish to seek
Is Yours, that I may please You

That I may be Yours, and Yours alone
A thing, You have already done by Your great mercy
By Your own spotless Son
So I will rest, and know that I

Am Yours, and Yours alone
And that is enough for me.

Letting Go

In the middle of a crazy day
Surrounded by the world and
Encompassed by wild thoughts
Begging me to fall

I find myself listening to
A peculiar, melody
A song of hope, a song of praise
To get me through the day

I stop and listen for a moment
Intrigued by the beauty of
Such simple worlds, and simple music that
Hearkens me to stop and listen

To cease believing the lies around me

For in this song, there sings a hope
A voice, familiar yet too often
Forgotten in the chaos
A Voice, of love and of mercy

That tells me I am enough
I am enough in Him!

That all I am, though very little
In His hands, is more than enough, for He has made me beautiful,
And He has loved me so
And given me, so much

I am eternally grateful!

So it is in these times of desperation
In these hours of chaos and of lies
I choose to remember, yes, I choose to believe

Not the lies, or the voices all around me
Or that of my own mind

But I choose, instead to believe
Only one report

I will hear, only One
Only that Voice of Hope
Only the God of truth
For He is good, and He can be trusted

So I will believe, I will trust
I will hope in Him, and believe, no other
I will believe no lie
But I will trust, in Him alone

In Him who is the God of truth
No matter what may come!

For He is good, and He is trustworthy
And He is true, in all He does
Perfect, not lacking
And He does all things well

So I will trust, yes, I will believe
Him, this God,
Who crafted stars, and galaxies
And knows them all by name

As much as He knows me, in all my faults
As much as He knows my heart
And He made me, as He made them
To show His glory on the earth

To shine, and be His alone
To have fellowship with Him
This God who is so good,
This God who knows me best

I choose to trust in Him
I choose to believe His word
And I will hear, I will believe
No other voice

My God I give myself to You
I let go and place my life, my soul
My body into
Your loving hands oh God

My God, here I am
I am Yours and Yours alone
All I am is Yours, use me as
You see fit

For I choose, yes, today, I declare
I will believe no other
I will trust no other
Only You, only You

My God I give myself to You!